Posted in Faith, Food and Forward Steps

February Monthly Check In

Monthly Check-In: A Healthier Me

Month: February
Year: 2026

How This Month Went (The Big Picture)

February felt rushed, heavy, and honestly a little depressing — but February often carries that weight. I’m weary of winter. Even though we had a few warmer days, it almost made it harder; the tease of sunshine only stirred my longing for spring. I’m craving flowers, bright colors, warmth on my skin, and the simple joy of walking outside without piling on three extra layers. This month felt “blah” in many ways, but there was one beautiful bright spot: celebrating my granddaughter’s first birthday. Sophia turning one filled my heart in a way the gray skies couldn’t dim. I am so proud of her and so incredibly blessed to be her grandma — and that joy lifted my spirits more than anything else this month.


What Went Well

Celebrate the wins, big or small. Nothing is too minor to count.

  • I bought a treadmill.
  • I got to see my Sophia twice!
  • I’ve taken steps to lessen my phone/social media time.

What Was Hard

This is a judgment-free space. Name the struggles without shame.

  • Emotional eating was hard.
  • That lead to a 3 lb weight gain and that was hard.
  • Seeing myself in pictures from Christmas was hard.

Habits I’m Working On

The habits I’m intentionally building or strengthening.

  • Getting in the Word each morning, even if it’s only a few quiet minutes to center my heart before the day begins.
  •  Being more mindful of how much I eat — paying attention instead of eating out of boredom or habit.
  •  Making small, sustainable exchanges — like using just a dash of French vanilla creamer combined with oat milk in my coffee instead of all creamer. It’s helping me slowly adjust to less sweetness while still keeping that creamy comfort I enjoy.

Habits I Need to Let Go Of

The things that aren’t serving my health or peace.

  • Ice cream every night. I crave it, but I’m choosing to let that habit go and replace it with a cappuccino instead — far less sugar and a better trade-off.
  • Letting go of lazy habits that keep me stuck instead of moving forward.
  • Letting go of doom scrolling and the mental heaviness that comes with it.

Mental & Emotional Health Check

How this journey affected my mindset, emotions, and self-esteem.

  • What thoughts showed up often?
    A lot of “I’m tired of this season” thoughts. I felt restless, bored with winter, and ready for change. I caught myself thinking about how slow everything feels right now and how badly I want light, color, warmth, and forward movement. There was also a quiet undercurrent of wanting more — more energy, more joy, more purpose — even while feeling a little stuck.
  • What helped my mental health this month?
    Seeing my granddaughter Sophia — especially celebrating her first birthday — truly lifted my spirits. Making small health changes, like buying the treadmill and adjusting my coffee habit, gave me a sense of control and momentum. Creating a plan for my future also helped; vision always brings hope. And even a few warmer days reminded me that winter doesn’t last forever.
  • What didn’t?
    Too much time inside. Doom scrolling. Giving in to nightly sugar cravings. Letting boredom turn into mindless habits instead of intentional choices. Those things didn’t add peace — they just added heaviness.


Faith & Reflection

Where God met me this month.

  • God met me faithfully in His Word this month. As I’ve been more intentional about spending time with Him each morning, I’ve started to notice a gentle pruning — especially in my thought life. I’m thinking more about God and His truth, and less caught up in those circular mental conversations that never lead anywhere good. There’s a quiet shifting happening in me. I’m more aware, more anchored, and more determined to live my life from the throne — grounded in His authority, not my emotions.

Accountability Corner

(Sharing with grace, not shame.)

  • Change this month: Up 3 lbs



Lessons Learned

This month taught me that my body responds to small, consistent choices more than dramatic overhauls. I don’t need extremes — I need steadiness. A treadmill in the corner. A little less creamer. A little less sugar. A little more awareness. My body seems to thrive when I treat it gently but intentionally.

It also showed me how easily habits form around comfort. Ice cream at night, scrolling when I’m bored, staying wrapped in the dullness of winter instead of moving through it. My habits reveal what I reach for when I feel restless or low.

And my heart? It reminded me that I crave hope and forward movement. I need vision. I need light. I need the Word. When I give my heart truth and purpose, it steadies. When I don’t, it drifts. This month taught me that tending my heart daily isn’t optional — it’s everything.


Looking Ahead to Next Month

One or two realistic goals for the coming month.

  • Walk on the treadmill at least 4 days a week for 20–30 minutes. Nothing extreme — just steady movement to build consistency and keep momentum going, even if winter lingers a little longer.
  • Keep my morning Word habit simple and non-negotiable. Even 5–10 focused minutes each day, choosing faithfulness over perfection and anchoring my heart before the noise begins.

Closing Thoughts

February felt gray in more ways than one, but it wasn’t empty. Even in the rush, the boredom, and the heaviness, there were quiet shifts happening beneath the surface. Small habits were planted. Thoughts were pruned. Vision was formed. Joy showed up in the face of a one-year-old little girl who reminded me that new life is always growing somewhere.

If this month felt slow or “blah” for you too, maybe that doesn’t mean you’re failing — maybe it just means you’re in between seasons. Winter doesn’t last forever. Light returns. Flowers bloom. Energy comes back. In the meantime, we keep showing up in small, faithful ways.

Here’s to steady steps, gentler thoughts, and living from the throne — anchored, hopeful, and expectant for what the next month will bring.


Invitation

If you’re on a similar journey, I’d love to hear from you.
What worked for you this month? What are you struggling with?

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Posted in Moments and Musings

The Year That Stretched Me: A Reflection

As 2025 comes to a close, I like to take time to reflect on the year—what it’s taught me, how it’s stretched me, and what I’m carrying with me into 2026.

2025 was a year of change. Beautiful, emotional, uncomfortable, growing kind of change.

The highlight of my year was becoming a grandmother. It has brought me more joy than I ever imagined, but it also stirred up unexpected emotions. I found myself wishing I lived closer to my daughter and her family. I want to be the one who pops over to help when the baby is fussy, who babysits at a moment’s notice, who gives my daughter an afternoon off when she’s overwhelmed. Those longings led to moments of, “I’m not happy here.”

Since I bought a house with my sister last year, my living situation is set for a while. But what surprised me was the wave of grief I felt—grief over not being there for my daughter and granddaughter in the way my heart wanted. So I took those feelings to God, and He gently gave me my word for 2026: content.

Not “content” as in social media content—but content as in satisfied, at peace, rooted in gratitude.

I found myself thinking about my own mother, and how different our situations are. When my girls were born, I lived in Texas—over 1,100 miles away from her. She was a three-hour plane ride away from her granddaughters. I’m a three-hour car ride away from mine. She saw my girls once a year. I see little Sophia at least once a month. My mom saw her granddaughters grow up in pictures I mailed to her. I get daily photos and videos sent instantly to my phone.

In so many ways, technology has become my best friend. My mom didn’t have this. I’m blessed. And God reminded me of that. He reminded me that if needed, I can be in the car and with my granddaughter in just a few hours. And, bonus—there’s an Amtrak route from Joliet to Springfield, which my daughter has already taken several times for quick visits.

God also started pruning things in me—little things, but things that were stealing my peace. Like stressing over the temperature in the house. Menopause is unpredictable, and I can’t expect everyone around me to match my changing thermometer. What used to feel big has become small, and I’m learning to just let it be.

I started school this year—and then realized school isn’t for me right now. But I also learned something important: I actually AM smart enough. That lesson alone was worth it.

I’ve set some goals for 2026 that touch my physical well-being, my mental health, and my creativity. And I’ve been leaning more into what God wants me to do, not just what I want to do. One thing He made clear? I’ve become very whiny this year. Very complainy.

One day while walking the dog and having my usual “I’m not happy with my life” internal rant, the Holy Spirit cut me off with a loud, clear “STOP COMPLAINING.” And I literally stopped in my tracks. He was right. I’ve been complaining about things that many people are praying for—a good job, a beautiful home, stability. That realization shifted something deep in me. And with that shift, God started giving me ideas on how to improve both my home and my work life.

This season of pruning hasn’t always felt good—but correction rarely does. Yet I’m grateful for it. A loving father corrects His children, and I know I am deeply loved by God. This season has helped me release old hurts I didn’t even know I was carrying.

2025 was also a year of unexpected provision. My car accident ultimately allowed me to pay off almost all my debt—aside from buying a new car. And that new car has been such a blessing, not only to me but also to my family. My sister and I were also able to refinance the house. Now I’m this close to being debt-free except for my home and my car. My stretch goal for 2026? Pay off that car.

It’s a big goal—but I serve a big God, and He finishes what He starts.

As for this Christmas season, for the first time in many years, all my shopping was done in cash and kept beautifully simple. With my home decorated and the presents wrapped early, I’ve spent the rest of the year wrapped in the comfort and coziness of my home, surrounded by as much family as can be here.

2025 has been a challenging year of personal growth, but a meaningful one. I’m finally starting to feel more like the version of Vikki that God wants me to be.

And I can’t wait to see what 2026 brings.