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Scrolling Through My Childhood, One Listing at a Time

Every once in a while—usually when I’m bored, procrastinating, or feeling that specific kind of quiet nostalgia that sneaks up on you when you least expect it—I open the Mercari app. I don’t browse trends. I don’t check recommendations. I don’t even really know what I’m looking for.

Instead, I go straight to the search bar and type two words: vintage Avon.

And just like that, I’m not on my couch anymore. I’m transported to my childhood home.

A Portal to the Past

The listings load slowly, one after another, and each thumbnail feels like a small portal. There are perfume bottles shaped like animals and flowers—delicate and a little impractical. There’s milk glass, glossy compacts, powder tins with fading gold lettering. Lipsticks in shades that feel deeply rooted in another era. Things I haven’t seen in decades, yet somehow recognize instantly—like my brain never let go of their shapes.

Scrolling feels less like shopping and more like remembering.

Avon as a Way of Life

My mom sold Avon for over 25 years, and she wasn’t just casually involved—she was successful. Avon wasn’t a hobby; it was a business, a routine, a constant hum in the background of our lives. Avon boxes arrived like clockwork. Brochures were stacked on tables, tucked into bags, spread across the house. There was always a campaign happening, always an order deadline approaching.

As a kid, I understood that Avon was important, even if I didn’t fully grasp why. What I did understand were the chores:

  • Stamping the order forms by date—thump, thump, thump—until my hand felt tired.
  • Stapling an order form into every single brochure, lining them up carefully, trying not to miss a page.
  • Counting, sorting, organizing things that felt incredibly serious and very boring.

At the time, those tasks felt endless. I dreaded them. I complained. I dragged my feet. In my memory, they take up entire afternoons, even if they probably didn’t.

Waiting for the Next Brochure

But here’s the thing I didn’t realize then: even while I hated those chores, I was always waiting for what came next—the next brochure.

Because the arrival of a new Avon catalog was an event. The second it appeared, everything changed. Suddenly, the work felt lighter. Suddenly, there was something new to explore.

I’d flip through those glossy pages again and again. The makeup felt impossibly glamorous—lipsticks with names that sounded like confidence, eyeshadows arranged in neat little squares, compacts that snapped shut with authority. I didn’t even wear makeup yet, but I studied it like it was a promise of who I might become.

Fantasies in Jewelry and Décor

Then there were the necklaces and earrings—sparkly, dramatic, sometimes wildly impractical. I imagined wearing them to places I didn’t go, as versions of myself that didn’t exist yet. Avon had a way of selling fantasy alongside function, and I bought into it completely.

The home décor was its own category of wonder: figurines, decorative plates, seasonal items that only appeared briefly before disappearing again. They felt grown-up and important, like the kinds of things you owned once you had your life together.

Christmas Magic

And Christmas—Christmas was pure magic.

Holiday Avon was something else entirely. Those brochures felt thicker, heavier, bursting with possibility: ornaments, gift sets, candles, little collectible figurines that seemed designed specifically to become memories. Everything sparkled. Everything felt special. Even now, seeing a vintage Avon Christmas item listed online makes my chest tighten in the best way.

I can still picture certain pieces exactly where they lived in our house. I remember the weight of them, the way they caught the light, the quiet ceremony of taking them out once a year. Those items weren’t just decorations—they were markers of time, proof that the holidays had officially arrived.

More Than Shopping

So when I scroll through Mercari now, I’m not really shopping. I’m revisiting all of that.

Each listing brings back something different: the smell of paper brochures, the sound of staples clicking shut, the sight of Avon boxes stacked neatly and ready to go. I think about my mom—organized, determined, building something of her own campaign by campaign. I think about how much work went into it, how much pride she took in doing it well.

I didn’t understand it then. I just knew Avon was always there.

Seeing the Bigger Picture

Now, scrolling through “vintage Avon,” I see it differently. I see a woman running a business long before “side hustle” was a buzzword. I see a household shaped by routine, effort, and small rituals. I see how much of my sense of nostalgia is tied to those ordinary, repetitive moments.

Sometimes I buy something—a bottle, a trinket, a little piece of glass that once lived in someone else’s house but feels like it belongs with me. Sometimes I don’t. Sometimes I just scroll, letting the memories surface and settle.

The Power of Two Words

It’s funny what stays with you: a phone app. A search bar. Two simple words.

And suddenly, I’m a kid again—waiting impatiently for the next brochure, unaware that one day I’d miss it this much.

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Commit. Align. Establish.

Proverbs 16:3
“Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and He will establish your plans.”

There are two powerful words in this verse: commit and establish.
To commit means “to carry into action deliberately.”
To establish means “to institute permanently by enactment or agreement.”

In other words, commit is an action word. It requires intention. God isn’t asking us to drift through life hoping things fall into place—He’s asking us to deliberately include Him in what we do. When our plans align with His Word, He honors that alignment by establishing them—making them steady, secure, and lasting.

Several years ago, I was in a relationship with a man who openly admitted he had a difficult relationship with God. He had walked through deep pain, and that pain had shaken his belief in God’s love. On the surface, everything looked solid. We planned to get married. He loved my kids, I loved his, and he was even willing to have my mom live with us after the wedding.

But one day, I heard the Holy Spirit whisper,
“Are you ever going to include Me in this?”

And I knew exactly why I hadn’t.
My honest answer to God was, “No… because I already know what You’re going to say.”
I knew I was unequally matched. I knew the compromises I had made in my heart. I knew this relationship wasn’t built on the foundation God desired for me.

God didn’t argue.
He didn’t force.
He simply waited—like the gentleman He is.

While He waited, He gently reminded me again and again:
“My plans are higher. My ways are better.”

And as time went on, the relationship started to fray. Things that once felt certain began to unravel. Eventually, I went to God and said,
“I yield, Father. I commit this relationship to You. Direct me. I want to please You more than I want to please myself.”

I prayed for myself, for him, for our children, and for healing where it was needed. And then I ended the relationship.

The moment I did, I felt shackles fall.
The enemy lost.
God spared me from what would have surely become another heartbreak—and possibly another divorce.

Friends, when we align our lives and our plans with the Word of God, the hardest part is already done. God honors His Word. When we commit our plans to Him, He begins to shape, strengthen, and establish them. He opens paths where there were none. He gives wisdom and ideas. He provides for what He Himself has approved—because ultimately, they become His plans too.

If you want to know God’s plans for your life, look to His Word. The Bible isn’t just a love story—it’s a blueprint. A guide. A light that never fails.

So let me ask you:
What plans are you making for your life right now?
Have you included God in those plans?
And can I pray with you today?

Prayer:
“Heavenly Father, thank You for the good, hopeful plans You have made for me. Jeremiah 29:11 reminds me that Your plans are not for my harm but for my future and my hope. As I align my steps with Your Word, I thank You that You are establishing my plans and causing them to succeed. Give me continued wisdom, clarity, and a heart that stays sensitive to Your guidance. Let Your Word remain a constant light to my path. I thank You for all of this, in Jesus’ name. Amen.”

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Blessed To Be A Blessing

I’ve heard the phrase “blessed to be a blessing” my whole life, but it’s only in recent years that I’ve really begun to understand what it means. Not just as a cute saying or a line we nod along to in church—but as a way of living, trusting, and letting go.

If I’m honest, one of the clearest examples of this has always been my sweet sister. By default, she has been a blessing—to my mom and to me—over and over again. She didn’t have to be asked. She didn’t keep score. She just showed up. In big ways and small ones. In quiet sacrifices and loud love. When Mom needed help, my sister was there. When I needed encouragement, she was there. It flowed out of her naturally, like breathing. Watching her love has always reminded me that blessing others isn’t about excess—it’s about obedience and a willing heart.

The world tells us money is power. That it’s security. That it’s something to chase, hoard, fear, or worship. But I’ve never been able to see it that way. To me, money is a tool. Useful, yes—but not powerful. Not ultimate. Not worthy of fear. God alone holds that place.

And God has met my needs my entire life. Not always the way I expected. Not always early. But always faithfully.

A year ago, I was in a car accident, and something surprising happened. For the first time in my life, I wasn’t afraid. No spiraling thoughts. No panic. Just peace. I relied fully on God—and He did wonders. In that moment, I realized how far He had brought me, and how much trust He had already built in me without me even noticing.

Recently, I got to witness my sister being a blessing in someone else’s life, and it was beautiful. Truly beautiful. It reminded me again that blessing isn’t about having “extra.” It’s about being willing. God flows through people who keep their hands open.

Money, though? That’s been harder for me.

I’ve always been afraid of it. We didn’t have much growing up, and while Mom did her very best—and taught me a lot about survival—I also learned about the “magic” of credit cards. (Spoiler alert: not magic at all, and they always send a bill later.) Then I married someone who taught me another lesson: how selfishness can creep in, how wants can come before family needs, and how tithing becomes optional when trust in God is optional.

When my mom died, something shifted in me. The very first thing I did was increase my tithe to what it should have been all along. And I haven’t stopped since. Not because I suddenly had more money—but because I finally had more trust.

God has never, ever stopped being faithful to me. Even in seasons when I wasn’t faithful to Him. Even when fear was louder than faith. Imagine that kind of love.

I still struggle sometimes. Fear of money is a hard habit to break. Old mindsets don’t disappear overnight. But I’m getting better. Stronger. Freer. Every time I see God provide again, every time I get to bless someone else, every time I watch generosity multiply instead of deplete—I’m reminded why this matters.

God’s economy doesn’t look anything like the world’s. It’s not supposed to. If it did, we wouldn’t need Him nearly as much as we do—and let’s be honest, this world needs way more of Jesus. In God’s economy, giving doesn’t make you poorer. Trust doesn’t make you reckless. And blessing others doesn’t rob you—it aligns you.

And it’s important to remember that God’s provision isn’t just about money. Not when He gave Jesus. Not when Jesus poured out His blood. That was the ultimate payment. The debt we could never repay—paid in full.
“For you know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, that though He was rich, yet for your sake He became poor, so that you through His poverty might become rich” (2 Corinthians 8:9).

So why do I bother being afraid of something as fleeting as money?

I shouldn’t be.

Instead, I want to live open-handed. Grateful. Trusting. Willing to be a blessing the way my sister so naturally is. Because I don’t put my hope in numbers on a screen. I put my hope in the Lord—“The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want” (Psalm 23:1).

So here I am—still learning. Still occasionally side-eyeing my bank account like it might jump out and scare me. Still reminding myself that money is a tool, not a tyrant, and definitely not my source. God is. Always has been. Always will be.

When I really stop and think about it, it’s almost laughable that I’m afraid of money. I serve the God who split seas, fed thousands with a kid’s lunch, and paid the greatest debt ever owed with His own Son. Compared to that, money is basically Monopoly cash. Useful? Sure. Powerful? Only if I let it be. Eternal? Not even close.

God’s economy is upside down by the world’s standards—and thank goodness for that. In His economy, generosity multiplies, faith beats fear, and blessing others somehow never leaves us lacking. “Give, and it will be given to you,” Jesus said—not as a threat, not as a transaction, but as a promise (Luke 6:38).

I don’t want to be ruled by fear over something so temporary. I want to be ruled by love—love for God, love for people, and the joy of getting to be a blessing.

Money comes and goes. God doesn’t. And when I remember that—really remember that—it becomes a whole lot easier to loosen my grip, open my hands, and smile… even while checking my bank account.

Posted in Faith, Food and Forward Steps

February Monthly Check In

Monthly Check-In: A Healthier Me

Month: February
Year: 2026

How This Month Went (The Big Picture)

February felt rushed, heavy, and honestly a little depressing — but February often carries that weight. I’m weary of winter. Even though we had a few warmer days, it almost made it harder; the tease of sunshine only stirred my longing for spring. I’m craving flowers, bright colors, warmth on my skin, and the simple joy of walking outside without piling on three extra layers. This month felt “blah” in many ways, but there was one beautiful bright spot: celebrating my granddaughter’s first birthday. Sophia turning one filled my heart in a way the gray skies couldn’t dim. I am so proud of her and so incredibly blessed to be her grandma — and that joy lifted my spirits more than anything else this month.


What Went Well

Celebrate the wins, big or small. Nothing is too minor to count.

  • I bought a treadmill.
  • I got to see my Sophia twice!
  • I’ve taken steps to lessen my phone/social media time.

What Was Hard

This is a judgment-free space. Name the struggles without shame.

  • Emotional eating was hard.
  • That lead to a 3 lb weight gain and that was hard.
  • Seeing myself in pictures from Christmas was hard.

Habits I’m Working On

The habits I’m intentionally building or strengthening.

  • Getting in the Word each morning, even if it’s only a few quiet minutes to center my heart before the day begins.
  •  Being more mindful of how much I eat — paying attention instead of eating out of boredom or habit.
  •  Making small, sustainable exchanges — like using just a dash of French vanilla creamer combined with oat milk in my coffee instead of all creamer. It’s helping me slowly adjust to less sweetness while still keeping that creamy comfort I enjoy.

Habits I Need to Let Go Of

The things that aren’t serving my health or peace.

  • Ice cream every night. I crave it, but I’m choosing to let that habit go and replace it with a cappuccino instead — far less sugar and a better trade-off.
  • Letting go of lazy habits that keep me stuck instead of moving forward.
  • Letting go of doom scrolling and the mental heaviness that comes with it.

Mental & Emotional Health Check

How this journey affected my mindset, emotions, and self-esteem.

  • What thoughts showed up often?
    A lot of “I’m tired of this season” thoughts. I felt restless, bored with winter, and ready for change. I caught myself thinking about how slow everything feels right now and how badly I want light, color, warmth, and forward movement. There was also a quiet undercurrent of wanting more — more energy, more joy, more purpose — even while feeling a little stuck.
  • What helped my mental health this month?
    Seeing my granddaughter Sophia — especially celebrating her first birthday — truly lifted my spirits. Making small health changes, like buying the treadmill and adjusting my coffee habit, gave me a sense of control and momentum. Creating a plan for my future also helped; vision always brings hope. And even a few warmer days reminded me that winter doesn’t last forever.
  • What didn’t?
    Too much time inside. Doom scrolling. Giving in to nightly sugar cravings. Letting boredom turn into mindless habits instead of intentional choices. Those things didn’t add peace — they just added heaviness.


Faith & Reflection

Where God met me this month.

  • God met me faithfully in His Word this month. As I’ve been more intentional about spending time with Him each morning, I’ve started to notice a gentle pruning — especially in my thought life. I’m thinking more about God and His truth, and less caught up in those circular mental conversations that never lead anywhere good. There’s a quiet shifting happening in me. I’m more aware, more anchored, and more determined to live my life from the throne — grounded in His authority, not my emotions.

Accountability Corner

(Sharing with grace, not shame.)

  • Change this month: Up 3 lbs



Lessons Learned

This month taught me that my body responds to small, consistent choices more than dramatic overhauls. I don’t need extremes — I need steadiness. A treadmill in the corner. A little less creamer. A little less sugar. A little more awareness. My body seems to thrive when I treat it gently but intentionally.

It also showed me how easily habits form around comfort. Ice cream at night, scrolling when I’m bored, staying wrapped in the dullness of winter instead of moving through it. My habits reveal what I reach for when I feel restless or low.

And my heart? It reminded me that I crave hope and forward movement. I need vision. I need light. I need the Word. When I give my heart truth and purpose, it steadies. When I don’t, it drifts. This month taught me that tending my heart daily isn’t optional — it’s everything.


Looking Ahead to Next Month

One or two realistic goals for the coming month.

  • Walk on the treadmill at least 4 days a week for 20–30 minutes. Nothing extreme — just steady movement to build consistency and keep momentum going, even if winter lingers a little longer.
  • Keep my morning Word habit simple and non-negotiable. Even 5–10 focused minutes each day, choosing faithfulness over perfection and anchoring my heart before the noise begins.

Closing Thoughts

February felt gray in more ways than one, but it wasn’t empty. Even in the rush, the boredom, and the heaviness, there were quiet shifts happening beneath the surface. Small habits were planted. Thoughts were pruned. Vision was formed. Joy showed up in the face of a one-year-old little girl who reminded me that new life is always growing somewhere.

If this month felt slow or “blah” for you too, maybe that doesn’t mean you’re failing — maybe it just means you’re in between seasons. Winter doesn’t last forever. Light returns. Flowers bloom. Energy comes back. In the meantime, we keep showing up in small, faithful ways.

Here’s to steady steps, gentler thoughts, and living from the throne — anchored, hopeful, and expectant for what the next month will bring.


Invitation

If you’re on a similar journey, I’d love to hear from you.
What worked for you this month? What are you struggling with?

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A–Z: All the Things I Pray for My One-Year-Old Granddaughter, Sophia

Sophia is one year old.

One.

And yet somehow she already runs the household, negotiates snack treaties, and delivers stand-up comedy routines without speaking full sentences.

She is wildly smart. She is extremely funny. She is 30% cheeks, 40% curiosity, and 100% answered prayer.

So here is my A–Z list of everything I pray over her sweet life.

A – Audacious Faith

I pray she believes God for big things.

“Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” — Hebrews 11:1

May she ask boldly. Dream wildly. And pray like someone who knows her Father owns the universe.

B – Boldness

Even now she walks into rooms like she owns them (because technically, she owns all of us).

“For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind.” — 2 Timothy 1:7

May she never shrink back from who God made her to be.

C – Curiosity

She already inspects everything like a tiny scientist with chubby hands.

I pray she keeps asking why, how, and “what’s that?” for the rest of her life.

“Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.” — Jeremiah 33:3

D – Discernment

Because someday those big, sparkling eyes will need wisdom to match.

“If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God… and it will be given to you.” — James 1:5

May she know truth from nonsense. (Especially on the internet.)

E – Empathy

May she pat faces when someone pretends to cry.

“Be kind and compassionate to one another.” — Ephesians 4:32

May she keep that tender heart.

F – Fearlessness

Currently, she fearlessly climbs furniture like a mountain goat in pajamas.

I pray her courage always points her toward purpose — not danger.

“The Lord is my light and my salvation—whom shall I fear?” — Psalm 27:1

G – Giggles

Oh, the giggles.

The deep belly laughs over absolutely nothing. The dramatic fake laugh when she wants attention.

“A cheerful heart is good medicine.” — Proverbs 17:22

May her joy heal rooms.

H – Humility

Even though she is clearly a baby genius.

“Clothe yourselves with humility toward one another.” — 1 Peter 5:5

May she shine without needing applause.

I – Integrity

Even when no one is watching (which is rare, because we are all watching).

“The righteous who walks in his integrity—blessed are his children after him!” — Proverbs 20:7

J – Joy

Not the temporary kind. The deep, anchored kind.

“The joy of the Lord is your strength.” — Nehemiah 8:10

May joy be her superpower.

K – Kindness

To siblings, friends, strangers… and future in-laws.

“Let all that you do be done in love.” — 1 Corinthians 16:14

L – Leadership

She already points and we follow.

I pray she leads with grace, not ego.

“Whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant.” — Matthew 20:26

M – Mercy

Because we all need it.

“Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy.” — Matthew 5:7

N – Nerve (Holy Confidence)

Not sass. Not stubbornness.

But holy confidence rooted in knowing who she belongs to.

“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.” — Psalm 139:14

O – Obedience

A prayer for toddler years. And teenage years. And beyond.

“Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right.” — Ephesians 6:1

(We’re claiming this one early.)

P – Purpose

Before the world tells her who she should be, may she know whose she is.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord. — Jeremiah 29:11

Q – Quick Forgiveness

Because someday someone will take her toy. Or her parking spot.

“Forgive as the Lord forgave you.” — Colossians 3:13

R – Resilience

When she falls (off furniture or in life), may she rise again.

“The righteous fall seven times, they rise again.” — Proverbs 24:16

S – Strength

Physical. Emotional. Spiritual.

“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” — Philippians 4:13

Also: strength to resist touching things labeled “Do Not Touch.”

T – Truth

In a loud world, may she recognize God’s voice.

“Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” — John 8:32

U – Understanding

Of people. Of herself. Of God’s Word.

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart.” — Proverbs 3:5

V – Vision

Not just eyesight (though that’s important when locating snacks).

But vision for what matters eternally.

“Where there is no vision, the people perish.” — Proverbs 29:18

W – Wisdom

Because being smart is wonderful.

But being wise? That’s powerful.

“The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.” — Proverbs 9:10

X – eXtraordinary Love

Yes, I cheated on the X.

But I pray she lives an extraordinary life marked by extraordinary love.

“Above all, love each other deeply.” — 1 Peter 4:8

Y – Yes to God

When He calls.
When He nudges.
When He whispers.

“Speak, Lord, for your servant is listening.” — 1 Samuel 3:9

Z – Zeal

Passion. Fire. Energy for what is good.

“Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor.” — Romans 12:11

And Above All…

I pray she always knows this:

She is loved beyond measure.
She is covered in prayer.
She is surrounded by people who think the sun rises and sets on her smiles.

And long before she was funny…
Long before she was smart…
Long before she stole all of our hearts…

God called her His.

“Children are a heritage from the Lord.” — Psalm 127:3

Sophia, you are our joy. Our laughter. Our answered prayer.

And Grammy is praying big things for you. Always. 💛

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